For the third time, I sent my writing to a writing competition even though I know very well that I would not win anything. I know that I don't write the way that is deemed as "good enough". But I still try. I still "usaha".
So since it is the third time, the results are out and I didn't win anything again, I shall give up on it. Not sending any writing to them anymore. It cost me $32 to send both entries, ie. "short story" and "poetry". I just cannot write like them. I cannot write the same way as how people have been writing for thousands of years. There are many ways of writing and I shall continue writing my own way.
Winning would be good as I need the cash prizes, but I guess that belongs to a different world.
Since they said the writings cannot be from published works and I didn't win anything, I shall publish them here for anyone to read.
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